New.... New ideas, new ways, new everything. I want it all new, so that I get to be a new "ME". All this while I were a particular person... a person not of my liking honestly because it was for someone else. I had changed drastically and dramatically for a "SOMEONE" in particular.
The oldest me, the way I was before I changed is something I want to be now. Its not an easy transition, however, since I like that person a lot better than anything else that I can be, I want to change.
Its a Work In Progress.. I am a work in progress. I guess I will always be a work in progress. The road which constantly needs repairs. The one with so many potholes that by the time one is repaired another one appears mysteriously :P
Having called myself a work in progress, I am not a project for anyone to help. I know my flaws and have found peace in the knowledge that I will always have them. Improving upon them is what I will call a work in progress -- improving to become a better ME!!
Example; I am highly emotional - read superlative of HIGH. Having an emotional thought process only gives me stress and headaches throughout any conversations in the world. I have trust issues now since the past year. I know not everyone is out there to hurt me; however, I have closed myself to all. I just don't want to lay my heart out!! But being THE highly emotional me, I do exactly the same and repeat everything.
I get hurt.. by the simplest of nonsense and then get happy high on the politest of the smile too. Great is the feeling of being happy, hurting on the other hand isn't that fun. It doesn't help. Call for action! NOW!! Interestingly I know I need to change, for no one else but me!! Emotions help art; but they destroy the Heart!!
I read this quote a long time ago "There is something about laying your heart out, just risking it all; its insane and stupid and painful and amazing."
So letting the guard down for the very first time in my entire existence...
Let's see how step ONE pans out!!
Work In Progress..
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