What is the true meaning of any relationship?Why do we look for meanings in relationships? Here I have a friend who constantly supports my practical side of the brain, by saying out loud what I am going through in the day. Reminds me of the real world, and the difference between what I am thinking & what is real... And that dear friend is not even around me!! Long distance relationship...
Repeatedly I have been told relationships are nurtured by intimacy, closeness, being there for one another... How come all I have are long distance ones and I completely trust them all? Was I very close to them in physical sense? No. So what has changed in the relationship factors?.. Is DISTANCE a key parameter to help a relationship become healthy?
How do I explain my brain that this friendship I have is temporary when it actually feels so permanent. Missing the conversation when busy, leaves a huge void in the system. Do I relate to him because he is that good a person and friend and gives a perspective different than mine or do I feel safe in expressing myself BECAUSE he is far??
Isn't this the way a real relationship should work...?? real being .. in one place at the same time physically? Where you finish each others' sentences, know the look on the face, the emotion in the eyes, the unspoken words.. Like a mother knows her child..... Like when she knows her child needs the blanket in the middle of the night!!
I think now.. after an experience.. I know a relationship is supposed to bring you warmth, happiness, a coming to home feeling... like you belong there.. If this feeling isn't in the relationship, that one is to fail for sure!! So a relationship, if lacks in providing a cover in your coldest of hours, toughest of times and is completely unsupportive & destructive; should be taken out of your life, with a proper closure!
So when I chose to not explain anything I chose wrong. Now after the explanation, I feel I've achieved one simple thing in my life. PEACE!!
Maybe that was lacking in what I had for these many years. It never felt "at home".. it never felt "warm & happy". I wasn't at Peace.. At all!
And now since I have all of it I don't want to let it go. My PEACE is what I want in life, more than anything, even if that means I need to break the only person's heart I have ever truly loved!!
We are not mean to be!!
Repeatedly I have been told relationships are nurtured by intimacy, closeness, being there for one another... How come all I have are long distance ones and I completely trust them all? Was I very close to them in physical sense? No. So what has changed in the relationship factors?.. Is DISTANCE a key parameter to help a relationship become healthy?
How do I explain my brain that this friendship I have is temporary when it actually feels so permanent. Missing the conversation when busy, leaves a huge void in the system. Do I relate to him because he is that good a person and friend and gives a perspective different than mine or do I feel safe in expressing myself BECAUSE he is far??
Isn't this the way a real relationship should work...?? real being .. in one place at the same time physically? Where you finish each others' sentences, know the look on the face, the emotion in the eyes, the unspoken words.. Like a mother knows her child..... Like when she knows her child needs the blanket in the middle of the night!!
I think now.. after an experience.. I know a relationship is supposed to bring you warmth, happiness, a coming to home feeling... like you belong there.. If this feeling isn't in the relationship, that one is to fail for sure!! So a relationship, if lacks in providing a cover in your coldest of hours, toughest of times and is completely unsupportive & destructive; should be taken out of your life, with a proper closure!
So when I chose to not explain anything I chose wrong. Now after the explanation, I feel I've achieved one simple thing in my life. PEACE!!
Maybe that was lacking in what I had for these many years. It never felt "at home".. it never felt "warm & happy". I wasn't at Peace.. At all!
And now since I have all of it I don't want to let it go. My PEACE is what I want in life, more than anything, even if that means I need to break the only person's heart I have ever truly loved!!
We are not mean to be!!
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