Outdoorsy

Officially today is my last day at office. Believe it or not, I am happy and enjoying the fact that I am leaving this office. :)

What lies beneath is a matter of concern for two people who know each other. They strive to be in tandem with each other and for that they do everything possible. Even lie..

Lying is a bad virtue, this is what I learned in school and my mom taught me to say the truth all the time. As i grew up, I found that lying was a bad virtue, though was very essential. It was necessary to hide certain facts and truth from sometimes just one person and at times with everyone...

I just hope I get better at it without being caught and feeling guilty.

I always thought that expecting someone to understand my thoughts was eligible. In a recent conversation with someone, I came to know that the expectations rise when not answered at the correct moment. If it is so, then why do people not express their feelings when required? Also, I get confused with the other fact that, if people state their feelings, they are termed as either straight - forward, non - diplomatic, arrogant, or even rude! So why again express feelings?

This confusion has risen due to the conflict between my left brain and right brain that say the opposite of each other. One says I should be expressive and say what I feel like to people I trust. I guess that would make my life simpler, however I still think there can be certain things that would hurt the listener. The other says I should be diplomatic and speak politically correct and acceptable statements and not say everything I think. Not even to the closest of my relations. This suffocates me as a person.

I actually don't know what to do however, I have decided on one thing.. I would never expect anything from anyone as far as I can possibly do.. At least if no one, I would be able to keep myself happy :P

I hate saying this, but have got no options! I myself coin diplomatic people as "Hypocrites". I am surely being biased and have no rights to change the meaning of the word but, this is my blog and this is my space.. he he!!

Enjoy and Have Fun!!!

Good Night!

Every time I see him, I see a different quality in him. He is new all the time. I know him from a long time,since my birth and he has always been there! The best thing about him is that he is not afraid of failures and he has this immense courage to start all over again.

He is very caring and loving though has a different way to show it. He loves experimenting with food and is a great cook. He makes lovely Chinese dishes! And I know every one in my family would agree with me!

He is my Father and he is the Greatest Father in the world.

I would miss him very much when I would move to Mumbai!! Last week when Ma was not around, we were only Papa, Me & Tobu. And trust me we had loads of fun! :)

Papa I love you and I would seriously miss all the cartoon shows we watch together.. specially Tom & Jerry (Our Favorite!!)

Megha & VJ I know you both would second me in whatever I write about her today!

She is a vast subject though! Can’t just express her in 2 or 3 lines.. She is the most precious person I have in my life. Not because she is my mother.. She is also my best friend and I guess for Megha and VJ too.

She likes orange and yellow and is as vibrant as the colours themselves. She is a very warm and loving person, who has immense tolerance and patience. She is fond of music, be it old Hindi Movies or the new ones. She even likes Metal, her favourite rockstar being Vivek Jha :P

She loves to sing and cannot complete a single line without errors. :) VJ to mummy se ladta hi rehta for singing all wrong lyrics.
She like all mums is an awesome cook. Experiments with recipes and makes them even more delicious.

Lately I have discovered that she has a flare of entrepreneurship and she would have become a CEO by now if given a chance in the earlier days of her life…

My mother is an institution in herself and I am so lucky to have her for me and that too for the entire life!!

I love you ma!!! :)

I recently got a call from my cousin who lives in US. She congratulated me on my engagement and asked how is Ashish? When i replied that he is good she said i can do better than saying that he is good. :)

Everyone who knows me, knows one thing that i am a little non - expressive(is that a word??) kinds.

Come to speak about Ashish, as far as i know he is one of the best human beings i have ever met. He has an immense capability to make others laugh and has an amazing sense of humor. He is a poet and he writes well. He is a very good orator. He is no doubt a charming man and of course my prince..

Ashish, makes me feel special. Specially when he writes and recites a poem about me! And when i don't understand some words, would explain them like a teacher in a layman's language. He is an idol to most of the people who know him.

I have known Ashish since May 2008 and whatever little i know about him, makes me feel that i am lucky to have known this scholar and i am very lucky that i will live with him forever..

Hypocrisy is a virtue that I haven't mastered yet in me!

“I need my space”… isn’t it the most common phrase heard these days? How do you actually define space? And what are the parameters that determine how much space is available to whom? I would really like to have an answer to this question of mine! Please feel free to advise! Not that I promise to abide by it J but would surely consider it..

These days everybody wants their space, not saying that I don’t require mine!! I do however; what is beyond my comprehension is the intolerance we have towards everything. I am sure you would agree. No body tolerates a late delivery of their food ordered. No body tolerates the traffic jam, specially in Delhi.. Oh God!! Save us all from that.. It seems that patience has blown out of the window.. :P

Going back to what I was saying.. Intolerance is the “ IN - THING” these days.. I have grown up seeing my parents and my siblings tolerating me.. Tolerating all the crap and tantrums I used to throw at them.. And I was always blessed with friends also who “tolerated” whatever I said or did. They gave me my space to let me be me and be my original self.. J

I use the TSR, popularly know as Autos for my commutation. And I don’t have any other choice to listen to all their crap before they agree to (nearly) the fare I quote.. It was yesterday itself when I had to reach office at 9:30 and thanks to these stupid and non sense Auto Walas in Delhi that it took me 45 minutes to get one!! They really check my patience.. And tolerance.. J

I wonder what would happen to me in the coming years when I might be dependent on many other factors than the ones now!! I hope and wish that I develop enough patience level to tolerate everything I see and hear in life!!

I pray for you all too!!

Does anybody know why the situation worsens when you try hard to make it better! Hard as in real hard.. I don't know whether it happens to you all too, however; I guess I am a victim of this every single time!!

I really wish I had an answer to that! People who were in talking terms with me, all of sudden just don't want to talk to me anymore!! I wonder whether i piss them off while talking to them. Or is it just that I have a weird sense of timing with words.. :P

Well whatever it is... I just don't get this simple thing.. People who know me since my childhood would know me in and out! So how come I understand what they want and they don't know what i want? How is it possible that I make out what they mean when they say something and they don't understand what was my statement all about?!!

I wonder whether i would ever crack this code and solve this mystery case file! Like I do when i play a hide and seek PC game :)

Good night .. Sleep well.. And don't just piss off your loved ones like I do! :P

i want to take the liberty to speak on friendship this friendship month. this is dedicated to all my friends who have been there in my life since i was a child, probably 1 and a half year old. when i was not aware what is the meaning of friendship, i had a friend and he has been my friend ever since. he is my first friend. a very special one.

i have shared my moments of happiness with her on the terrace of my building after school. shared the most innate thoughts, gossip and ideas to have fun! made fun of classmates, teachers and neighbors. even made plans to tease and irritate the "Tabla Master".. she was the best friend i could ever get.. i miss all those days of fun!! no one could ever replace this lady and would never be able to separate the link i have with her..

she came along when i went into college. as confused as me, she had another thing in common with me. the love for dance. we both were hungry for it then and are hungry even now. i am sure she still dances to all the foot tapping numbers that the Mumbai Film Industry has to offer.. a very good dancer and a good human being. i know what i am for her and what she is for me. no need to remind you that, eh?

she came into my world when i was about 3 or 3 and half years old. since then she has been my bestest(i know a wrong word, however that's the only adjective for her) friend. i have been sharing everything with her, all my sorrows and all my joys. all my happiness, my achievements and failures.. she has been the joy of my life, the purpose of my existence and the motivation of my being..

these are a few people who i call my friends. rishi, madhu, deepu and megs.

i firmly believe in a notion that every relationship builds upon a single block of friendship and every friend born is for ever.

guys thank you for being there in my life throughout... love you all and hope to be with you all for ever...